Fear will not rule me. It’s a thought my MC has shortly after the book’s inciting event, and it's a big turning point for her.
See, she’s faced with a decision and while she already knows what she wants to do, she hasn’t acted yet. Blake Synder calls this beat The Debate. The character can still change his or her mind. They can still back out. But my MC realizes that if she doesn’t try, then she’s letting fear win.
It’s the moment she commits to her choice.
She’s afraid, yes, and she accepts that fear. She owns it.
And she resolves to move forward anyway.
So, where am I going with this?
Lately, I’ve been stuck in
a holding pattern of sorts. It hasn’t been a lot of fun. Every time I try to
start a new story, all these doubts start needling me. Truth be told, it’s been
driving me berserkers! I feel like I’m my own worst enemy.
After doing some
serious soul searching, what I’ve realized is that I’m afraid. I’m afraid I’m not good enough, afraid of making the wrong
choices, afraid that my writing won’t be marketable.
I’m afraid of failure.
Mind = blown, right? Yeah, I didn’t think so. If you’re
reading this blog, chances are you’re a writer and there’s a decent likelihood
you’ve experienced at least some this, too. Heck, even if you’re not a writer you’ve
probably been afraid of something.
Here’s the thing, though. I also know that if I let fear paralyze
me, I’ve already failed.
They have a saying at my son’s karate school: a black belt
is a white belt that never gave up. Writing is a different animal, though, and
there is no guarantee that if you keep trying you’ll eventually get from point
A to point B. We take that risk the moment we commit to being writers. Writing is like putting a little piece of your soul out there in the world. I
write because I love it. I love words, and creating kooky, kickass, characters
and the places they inhabit. I love stories that make me feel something. I love
telling stories that will make other people feel something.
So fear be damned! Yes, it’s still there, and yes, I’m going
to own it. Sometimes I will fail, and
that’s okay.
I don’t know who said that the road to success is paved with
failures, but the quote resonates with me. Each of our paths will look
different. Some will be longer than others. But if you’re not paving the road,
then you’re standing still.
I don’t want to stand still.
